Birthday is tomolo... But dunno y I dun have the mood... Y?
I oso dunno...

Sumtime reali feel life is a miserable ting... Y?
I oso dunno...

Later goin to West mall the see the bicycles for my kiddos. I promised them I will buy.
Reali dun wan to make them feel I lie to them. Beside, kids at their age all mostly got their own bikes. I wan them to live life the same as normal family kids.
I dun wan them to be different just because they dun have a complete family.

Pple always tink Im strong to be able to survive bringin 3 kids with me. Actuali my life is not reali that good. I oso have problems I cant solve, debt I cant pay, and future I dunno will become wat...

I oso envy pple with happy marriage, or gals who are single and carefree... I oso wanted to go back to single life if I can, buy tings I like and go anywhere I wan. But I noe not all tings I wanted to do can be done. No choice, have to resign to fate...

Sian sia.. Birthday reaching means Im getting more and more old. Aiyo, hate to lok old lei.. Still got so many things I havent done...

In the past, I keep hopin to grow up, now I just wan to kid forever... With pple to love and care and dote everyday... Of course thats impossible. How I wish I can find someone who will always treat me like a kid...

Tis mth I muz get my W850i. Die oso muz have. Hahaha... My phone is way too old liao. And this mth I muz get 2 bicycles each for Ah boi and Belle. As for Ah zhu... I oso dunno wat to get for him.

I oso muz go get the nicrottes for quittin smokin. I MUZ QUIT BY END OF MAY!!!!
Hope so I have the determination. Partially is to save the money and partially because smoking makes me look old...

SO MY RESOLUTION FOR THIS MTH IS :

1 . QUIT SMOKIN BY END OF MAY

2 . EARN MORE MONEY(althou i dunno how to)

3. GET BIKES FOR MY KIDDOS(i promise them le)

4. GET MYSELF A NEW PH AS A BIRTHDAY PRESENT(since i wont have any presents)

5 . FOREVER YOUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (hahahahahahahah....)

Me went over Karin's hse at 4pm. Quite late liao lor. I was glad to see her cause she was my best pal for so many yrs liao. Only she noes all my secrets lor. I tell her everythin!!! LOLZ!
My kids are also veri close to her and her sons. They grow up together de mah. Then her sil and Phoebe came after I reach not long. Phoebe is so cute and chubby!!! I love her SOOO much!!! Chubby until I want to pinch her cheeks!! But i never la, haha...

She got a weightin machine and I went to see have my weight drop or increase, but no lor... Remain the same 44 kg. Then she weight herself and she scream askin me why I was lighter than her, LOLz.. Cause I was heavier than her in the past mah..

We went to KFC for dinner. She say she long time never had KFC liao, haha...

Eversince I moved back my dad's pl, I seldom meet her but always sms each other. Cause she live veri far from me. In the Past we always meet up to shoppin or go each other home de.

Sometimes I reali feel Im lucky to have a fews best pals by my side.
Thanks Karin, Kelly!!! For being my BEST BUDDY and BEST PAL for so long!! I love you, gals!!! LOLZ!!

Anyway, I stay there till 11 pm then go home. Love to chit chat and gossip with her mah. Hahaha... Ah zhu fall aslp when we are waitin for cab and ah boi fall aslp in cab. Belle oso was veri tired. Even I myself nearly fall aslp in cab. Now all have gone to bed. Veri fast!!!

Shit la, reali feel veri itchy lei cause the burn skin have started to peel skin. All around the shoulders, even my ears lor.. Makes me so xin ku and so ugly... Buay tahan the itch ar!!!! Argh!

ME, relaxin at Karin's hse...

Ah zhu and me!!!

Me and Phoebe.

My fren's bro daughter, Phoebe. So cute hor. Next mth 1 yr old. My ah zhu same size as her lei! LOLZ.. She is veri guai lor, can play alone herself, wun disturb anyone.

Karin's eldest son, Eden. Same age as my belle.

Zhuzhu sittin on the chair.. Me oso...!!


So MANY toys to play!!!



Eden, Belle and Garren outside playin bicycle.

Im goin to Karin hse soon... Belle just came back from her tuition and my ah zhu fall aslp.

Aiyo, tis few days keep havin headaches. Maybe because of LATE NITE SLPIN... Always stay until 3, 4 am then slp... Chit Chat lor...

Last nite I paint my nails red red... So long never paint lei.

Nice anot??? I love RED and PINK!!!!

Sian la... Goin broke soon... Got burn until I now feel so itchy and dry... even got skin comin out lor.

Feel like I like a malay. Soo dark and black.

Sian la, my company tinks they are big organization iz? Actuali dun allow us to wear jeans to work. Then wear what? Its not as if got highly pay or the place is veri grand.
SO troublesum. Wear so nice go so broken office like veri funny lor.

Dunno why they like to do those bo liao thing. What we wear will affect them mah? As long wear presentable can liao mah... Aiyo...

Me now just wan to live in peace and with lots and lots of happiness. Reali dun wan those unhappy past to keep hauntin me lor.

Karin jio me to go her hse this weekend. SO long never meet up with her liao leh.. SOOO mizz her and her sons!! Afterall I watch them grow up de mah... When they were born I was there to visit them in hospital de le... LOLz!!

My Bro AKA Desmond's 21st birthday Party Bash

My cousins!! See they are almost same age as my kiddos, hahaha!!!

My bro and his GF, Amanda... Pretty? I like her. She is nice...

All these guys here are the 'professional' nannies! Hahaha..! Well, thanks to them for helpin me makin my ah zhu slpin and playin with my 2 elder kiddos. Thanks guys! Should consider be a nanny, LOLz!!

My mum, birdday boy and me... Er, still missin is my big bro who hvnt come back. As for my dad... hmm... either he or my mum can come... And the small kiddo (Garren) is the extra!!

My cousins also, but older one, LOLz!!

My aunties, uncles, and whoever is there, hahaha!!!

The birthday song singin time!! See my bro happy like shit, hahaha!!!

The cutting Cake time!!!

And for your information, all these photos are taken by ME!!!

Here I wanted to wish my Bro to a better life in the future!! Muz be a good man hor...

You are forever MY LITTLE BRO!!! I LOVE YOU!! Come, Jie Jie give u kiss kiss, muack muack!!! LOLZ, hahaha!!!!

The chalet was reali fun!! We got sunburn, now my kiddos and I lok jus like cooked meat. Haha! My shoulder reali hurt lor. Even the bra strap makes me feel the pain.

Lucky yesterday sun was damn sunny and unlucky that there was no clouds at all.
I brim them to the swimmin pool at 11am+ and swim until 2pm+ and we got burn. Hahaha...
At 4pm+ I brim the 2 oldest to swim again. But dunno y they are not badly burn like me and my ah zhu. They jus got tanned alot. Especially my belle. She was veri white de now becum black beauty, hahaha!!!

Lucky got my bro's frens be my nannies. They help me to look after them otherwise I oso dunno how to cope with so many kids.

The party started at nite. Me and his frens waited for my bro and 1 of his fren to go take the food which my aunt cook and fetch my mum until we so hungry we started the barbecue ourselves to eat first.

At 8pm+ then everyone reach and my bro come back. God, I was already full when he brought back the curry chicken, fried bee hoon, and those fried food.

Ok la, this reali great to have a gathering once awhile lor. Especially those relatives I only see them once a year. LOLz!!

YEAH!! Finally is friday!!! Weekend again!!!

I jus went to bought a bikini for myself, hehe... I was tinkin now still young muz try out otherwise when old liao wan to wear oso paisay!!!

Im goin to my bro chalet today!!
He had went with with frens and I will go over myself with my kiddos. SO long nv go liao.
Muz reali enjoy myself.

Bought a Calvin Kein Escape for men perfume as his present. Cause he always used mine so bought him 1 so he wont keep usin my 1, hahaha!!!

Actuali I was tinkin to buy a watch but too ex. After buyin the perfume then I realised I should buy him a mp3. Too bad..

Now I goin to prepare myself and pack the stuffs I needed then go fetch them back and prepare them then OFF WE GO!

Here I want to wish him a HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!

And I wanted to wish my big bro a belated 28th birthday which is on the 31st March. Too bad he cant make it home for bro's chalet. Dun wori, big bro, I will oso play your share there!! LOLZ!!

Ah Belle lost one of her front teeth liao!! Now reali becum bo gay liao, hahaha!!!! This is her 5th tooth that drop.. So fast drop soo many teeth.

Haha, now reali become bogay ah soh...

She ask me why I put her photo here and I told I let everyone see bogay! Hahaha...

Dunno wat happen to stupid maple, keep dc after playin awhile... Stupid game always got problem...

Got anyone play this game anot har.. veri borin to play alone lei...

Now I uninstalled and reinstalled the game. Kinda of bore if nothin to play..

Today I keep thinkin I should go get a bikini or normal swimwear.. keke...

Nv wear a bikini b4 leh.. In the past I was too fat to wear. Now I tink my figure is ok to wear a bikini. Muz try out once in a life time mah.

Or else old liao then wear meh... makes pple laugh... LOL!

I felt lucky that althou I have 3 kids, I dun have those stretchmarks...

Sian, today have to work till 530pm. Doink!

Yesterday I and my ah zhu see doc liao. OMG, this 2 weeks already spent around 90+ on doctors liao. Now broke le..
Wanted to buy present for my bro's 21 birthday.. Was thinkin if buyin a adidas watch for him cause the white color adidas watch i gave him is spoilt.

Reali dunno wat to get him for a present.

Yesterday eat the cough medicine and I get so sleepy that I almost fall while watchin my bro playin maple.

Dunno its the medicine effective or I was too tired...

Big bro comin home on the 16th. Reali miz him lor. Dunno he will go china again anot. Dad keep naggin why he go for so long. I keep sayin I dunno.

Now I sittin in front if my com and drinkin a cup of coffee. SO relaxin hahaha... Later at 11 am have to go work... Muz reach at 11.30am.

All the kids have gone to childcare liao. Feel more peaceful.

Dunno why keep fallin sick recently. It is because of the weather?

Karin told me her son admitted to hospital last fri. Got fever that wont went away. Her son being feverin for a week and its above 38 degree... SO scary..

She sms me and I keep tellin her son will be fine.
Luckily yesterday his fever was gone and can go home.

Sometime I wonder will I get the chance to see my kds grow up and have their own family...
Maybe some pple never notice but the climate is changin fast.

SOO ScaRY, hahaha...

Haha, got tagged by Jansey and this is the first weird thing I encounter after bloggin for so long.. Lol!!
So here goes the 6 weird things abt myself as requested by Jansey..

• I, like my kids, got my own smelly blanket. Actuali the blanket belong to my bb but I use since he got his own blankie liao..

• I inherit a veri small hole at the side of my right ear from my dad. I dunno why its there but I have it ever since I was born.

• I, like Jansey, got hairy arms too. But I oso got hairy legs! (HAHAHA..)

• I muz have at least a cup of coffee everyday, or else feel veri uneasy.

• Pantiliners is a MUST thing for me to use, I love to be clean and smell-free.

• No 1 and 0 is connected to me from the day I was born...

Dunno all this count as weird anot, haha...

Sori that I din tag anyone cause nobody for me to tag.. Too bad... LOL!

Great, jus great!! Last year lcd monitor blackout and now keyboard too. Aiyo, usin the old keyboard now.
SO not used to it lor... Reali a lousy product this Acer... Only 2, 3 years and one by one spoilt. Wat a lousy brand!!
Tink I will go buy a new keyboard lor... Cause this old type reali not used leh.. Dunno hw much a keyboard cost lei...



Dunno I was suay or wat. All my kids and I are down with flu and cough. All passed by ah boi... Aiyo, now all tokin in a no sound voice and keep havin runnin nose.
Now everyone can hug each other and wait to die lor.

I reali veri terrified of havin flu cause it can cause sore throat and at nite reali cant slp well. Nose keep gettin blocked and head keeps feelin veri heavy.
Feel like collasping anytime...

Tomolo is Mon, have to start work again.
Sian, Tues have to work till 5.30pm. This few week I work at least 1 day a week until 5.30pm. Y? Cause my colleague keep gettin sick and having problem at home...
Sian LA!!!!!

Aiyo, soo tired.

Jus now ah boi got cane again. He is up to mischievious again.
This time he went to play with his sis's makeup set until the whole place got the glitters powder. I was teachin Belle homework at tat time...
I went to toilet and saw him inside washin his hand then I saw his face all full of those makeup and I got real angry.
Told him alot of time that those thing cannot play. He even used the nail polish and polish his fingernails.

After got cane, he fall aslp and I reali feel bad... Causehe always got cane. But I reali hope he can be more good and stop doin those mischievious things.
Makes me so scare he will grow up like his father, unreasonable and demandin.
Thats why I was veri strict with them.

Hope that they wont tink that I dun love them...

Jus now went to West Mall to buy swimsuit for my ah boi cause his old swimsuit is too small for him liao.

The last time we went swimmin is quite long ago and that time he wear is already quite tight.

I was planni to pass his old swimsuit to Zhuzhu cause that swimsuit is lokin new cause seldom wear de.

I oso wanted to buy a new one for myself. I wanted to buy those short-like swimsuit. Cause my buttock veri fleshy, wear those high cut one show out all my fats. LOL!!

Suddenly went to buy swimsuit was because I reali decided to brim them to next week chalet.

Too bad my ah kor cannot make it home b4 my ah di chalet.. If not he can help me carry stuffs.

If I go, sure got alot of tings to brim cause got 3 kids mah.

So long never go chalet liao. The last time I go was Mic's boi first mth chalet and I cant reali play anythin cause I was preggy with my zhuzhu. Din even get the chance to go to the beach.

This week I muz get to the beach and play with them. Belle being to beach once nia and my ah bois nv go b4 so muz go enjoy... keke...

Jus now Ah Belle came in and show me wat she did to ah zhu...

Ok, she dressed up my ah zhu into a Belle princess!! LOL!!

SOO like a xiao nui hai!!! Hahaha...

Sick, Im sick again!!

This time is my ah boi pass to me de. Aiyo, so xin ku! Got flu and sore throat...

I reali hate the time like now. Cause reali veri tired and moody, wanted to have some peace but still have to lok after them.
I reali hate gettin flu. It keeps makin my head heavy and restless...

This is the time I will get fustrated easily. Last nite went over my mum there and begin to feel tired. And my kids keep misbehaved themselves, makin me goin crazy.

Im not like other mum, sick liao will have someone to help lok after no matter wat. But Im always one to three. No matter how sick I am, I still have to lok after them myself...

Hiaz, zuo ren nan, zuo nui ren ge nan...

Now I reali wish Im dead...

Ok, plan cancelled again. Nv go out. My here abit cloudy like goin to rain and my bois was slpin...

Instead, let Belle play the education website she learn at school.
Keep naggin that she want to play games so let her play this instead...

Its quite a good website. Specially design for preschooler.

Aiya, reali veri sian at home. Dunno can go where lei. Goin to rain soon oso.
Holiday no mood at all. Rather go work at least can earn money lor... Hiaz...

Today meeting Kelly to Far East Plaza to walk walk. So long nv go Far east liao. Wan to go see got wat stuff there...

Good for Kelly, she only got 1 bb ger to brim, me hv to brim my 3 kiddos. So scare ltr they make me cant shop properly, hahaha!!

So long nv see her bb liao, now already 6 mths old. The last time I see her she only 2, 3 mths old nia...

Got to go prepare my kiddos, come back then update. Byeee!!!!

Kao, I tink I too noob liao... Too long nv go cinema liao, din noe after 5pm is 9.50 buck.

Ask the counter pple how much I nid to pay for 1 adult and 3 kids. Keep sayin if my ah boi is under 90cm then no nid buy ticket.
Then ask them if i buy the sofa seat which is 2 person seat can anot. Tel me the same ting.

Sofa seat cost 32 buck, if my ah boi over 90cm, nid to pay 1 more ticket which total is 41.50 buck!! Siao ar they! They oli small kids nia... Cannot chin cai de meh...
Spent so much jus to sit there for 1 1/2 hrs to watch a show...

If buy nomal ticket for 3 person cost 28.50 buck only. But I scare ltr bb make noise and disturb other pple, thats why want to buy sofa seat...

Like tat I rather brim them to my bro chalet for a swim and go seaside. At least can play 2 days and no nid spent so much...

Today Kelly called me and say she will be goin for tattooz laser next week or next next week!!

I oso wan!!!!

But cannot leh, that clinic open at 6pm and its at Yishun. I cant possibly brim the 3 of them to go with me mah...

I wan to remove the tattooz on my both shoulder side. Tink cost quite cheap cause my tattooz veri small only.

When then can I go le!!!!!!???

Aiya, forgot to buy 4d!! Hope to winn big prize lei, LOL!!!

Yesterday work til 5.30pm and reached home at 6pm, bath liao went to fetch kiddos from school and went to clinic to see doc. Who see doc lei.. Garren and Belle lor...
Poor Garren got a bad flu and cough, at nite cant slp well and keep cryin.. making me oso cant slp well.
As for Belle, its somethin quite personal and I dun wan to disclose it.

This 2 days got contact wit Lijuin and glad that she is ok.

One more day and it will be holiday!! Yeah!!
Me planning to brim them go see Mr Bean tomorrow after work. In the afternoon. Hope there wont be alot of pple...

Im still choosin between 7390 and 850i...
Hp shop pple say 7390 not veri good althou the camera got 3 megapixel. I dunno. which should I go for lei??

Garren birthday reachin soon. Next mth 1st week.
Should I let him celebrate in school?? Or jus celebrate with frens? Now all of them live so far from me...
Hmm, should how lei??

Today goin to cook macaronis with broccolis and mushroom for the kids. Always eat outside til dunno wat to buy lor.

By the way, forgot to wish Kelly al the best..

Hope she get want she wants!!!

Muz let me know the result hor!!

Just now went to West Mall library with my kids to return and borrow books. We had Old ChangKee as our dinner.

BB had constipation just now and he cry and cry. Luckily I still got 1 more pump for constipation and I pump the medicine in his you-noe-where. Kinda feel sad that he have to go thru this at so small age. Then afterwhile, he soiled his diaper. Althou its kinda of disgust, but I reali tink pumper for constipation is reali good cause kids no nid to go thru more pain.

Today BB hurt his mouth at school. Y? Teacher say he din notice the glass in front of him and he hit right on to it. The upper lip swollen abit... but still ok la.

Today was late for work cause last night slp at 2am and today wake up at 8am. Late for half an hour. Reach at 9.30am. Sumtimes reali no mood to work when the pay keep delayin.
Boss always delayin our pay and yet still can buy new laptop for herself and her Pri 4 sister. I kinda veri du lan with her but keep quiet. Wat can I say...
Colleague say maybe our pay for this mth will get delay again for a week or 2...

Reali quite a unconsiderate boss lor, she knows that I feed my kids all by myself and I only earn abit at there and yet keep delayin pple pay...
I oso got to pay my own things Lei!!

Tomorrow still got to pay 100 for Belle computer class at school and 70 for speech and drama class, the supervisor say can pay other day cause the headquarter havnt chase yet.
I was plannin for a Chinese tuition class for Belle too. Class at Mon, 6.30pm to 8pm. Wat attracts me is that they got teach Hanyu pinyin. Veri important thing cause Pri 1 will be learnin this...
Fee is 40 buck a mth if I remember correctly. Dunno got use or not...

As for Garren, next year will enrol him into english tuition. Which accept children in N2. Garren only N1.

Now only Belle already got so much to pay. Cant imagine when Garren and BB grow older how can manage to survive...

Came back from my il's there not long ago. So long never go liao... my kids reali miz their ah ma lor.
They were closed to my hb's mum cause they are brought up by her. Afterall I lived there for 5 yrs liao...

Chat alot with my mil. I and her are not like same who have problem with mil. She was a nice person and we often chit chat at nite when I was stayin there...

My mil bought new clothes for them and new shoe and bag for Belle. Had to admit my cupboard ahd no more space for their things liao.. Keke..

Stay there a nite and today we went to Toa Payoh to Yum Cha with mic and her kids too. Its my fil's treat. LOL.
Dunno why oli 4 adults, 3 kids and 2 toddlers can eat till 100++. Haha, even my fil oso got shocked. But he was ok with it. We walk around Toa Payoh central and went to Kiddy Palace and my mil brought a SPD toy sword for Garren and a mini makeup set for Belle.
Mic's daughter oso got a makeup set and her son got a cleaner toy set. After that we went back to il's hse.

I know my kids miz them alot cause I havnt go over for a mth after the CNY cause Belle need to tuition on Sat mornin and Drawing class at Sun afternoon. So its kinda of rush...
Now that the drawing class have ended, we can go over and stay till late more often...

Tomolo is Mon again.. Woh.... time reali flied pass.. So fast weekend ended and have to work again tomolo...

Tomolo will be BB's first day in toddler class!!
Im sure he will like it since he like to play around frens and he was in that school since he was only 4 mths old. He was quite used to there.
No need to worry he will cry or findin me...

My kids reali grow up alot. It seems like yesterday BB was still cryin and slpin all the time...
Garren oso know to sing songs and watch tv... Had to admit Im getting old too, haha..