Eating watermelon at mummy's place yesterday. Veri tired cos they keep running all about and zhuzhu accidently overturn one of the rack..

Garren and the hat they make at school.. (dun mind the mess behind :P)

This is sometin I have shouting at them not to always, but thet never listen. (climbing in by the side of the sofa)

Zhu zhu and the new haircut!! Smiling veri happi for wat reason I oso dunno!!

Finally, finished washing and hanging those kiddos clothes. Shit man, they reali got tons of clothes for me to wash everyday. I dunno why and how they wore. Maybe its because they changed 3 times a day!! Buay tahan.. Wash til I feel so shag of clothes xia...

Just dl the trial use of Photoshop CS3. But cant install cos it says I dun have the service pack 2 or whatever it is... Try to dl from Microsoft.com the service pack but le, the website hang... sian... wan to try out Photoshop oso hard... Hmm...

Garren have finally recover. Thank GOD!!

Brim Zhuzhu for a haircut yst cos too long and its makes him sweat alot which I dun like. So brim him to the nearest salon to cut. The aunties there thou he was a she, and she was surprise when I say he is a "he". Hahaha... Im used to it. Everytime I met those pple, they will mistaken zhuzhu a gal and everytime I have to correct them. Ha! But I dunno why until now pple stil mistake Garren a GER!! -_-" *doink* From what he wear, cant they see he IS a boy? Just onli I like to let them have a more Jap-like hairstyle cos suit them mah.. haiz... But Garren will be cuttin hair soon, once the front touches his eyes.

I have made up my mind to go rebonding. Sick of messy hair and look so untidy. Hahaha...
Will be doin it on tis Sat... Leave them at mummy there, sure get nag nag from her again.

Oh ya, I change my skin again... Credit to the creator who create such a pretty skin!!

Will upload Zhuzhu new "girlisy" hairstyle soon!!!

Ok, my fren have put up his dog at my place. Is a male 1 yr old + maltese. But now looks more like a stray dog cos he is shaved, haha...

Actuali he is quite pitiful. As fren not time to look after, he pass to another fren to look after and the dog have thin down due to lack of meals often. And his hair all tangle up till you can see the skin at all. And he smells.

So took him for a groomin before brim back home.
He is a good dog. At least he dont bark and pee or shit all over the place. He is still quite young. Kids love him alot. Especially the two elder ones. Always stick to him. Belle is the worst. Cry when we leave the dog at home to go out. Keep crying and say she want to stay at home with the dog.. -.-" At nite, she actuali want to stay outside to accompany the dog cos she say doggie outside alone will be scare.

Garren oso gone crazy with dog. Yesterday he actuali lay beside the dog and read story to him!!! Makes me give up on them both. As for zhuzhu, haiz, he keep bullying the dog. Actuali they are all disturbing the dog. Can see that the dog, Baby, was abit scare of them instead...

As for pics, tink when he have longer furs then upload...

Garren imitating the Mocca advertisment macho guy!! Hahahaha....

Eversince tat advertisment appear, he keeps watching whenever its on tv and one day he suddenly imitate him and make me laugh my head out!! Even Belle is learning the speech that guy say.

So decided to take pics... keke...

My son Garren, is the bravest kid I ever seen... Cos he actuali had no expression at all when he took his blood test on Friday at the Polyclinic. Not kidding.
Cos he had fever for almost a week as the fever keeps up and down... I decided to let him took the blood test althou the doctor say that seen his fever is subsiding, it should be ok. But I still dont feel good at all, so I let him do a blood test to let myself have a peace of mind... afterall, I live quite near the so-call "danger Zone".

The doc or watever they call themselves, say Garren was the youngest and bravest kid to have blood test that day. She poked needle in the vein in between the arm and cant find it and so she push in and out to find the vein. I was so fearful and heartpain for him, but I wasnt that worried when he actuali ahd no expression at all. Just stared at what the doc do. I was veri proud of him.
Becos the doc couldnt find his vein, she opt to use those pokin hole on the fingertip to draw blood. Garren blood flow too little tat its actuali veri hard for them to draw the amount thet needed and he got poke twice... and they squeezed and queezed his finger to make to blood flow out. Look veri painful to me but he actuali can tolerate.
Finally the test was done and luckily, his blood was clear.
I felt relieved and the one week of worries was all gone...
Now I used mosquito patches and Johnson's Baby anti-mosquitoes lotion on them. Hoping those deague thing will be over soon...

Restless while waitin for the medicine... Waited for at least halr an hour...

See the legs, so many mosquitoes bites...

Red from all the squeezing, poor thing...

This not red, cos the done by other doc. veri fast she finished.

The two fingers that got poked.

The bravest thing he ever face till now... No crying at all!!

Shit le, today have a big fright from cockroach... A damn big one...

I went to the excutive ladies room at my office building when I was veri urgent. Normally the toilet are use by those who have key cos the toilet are single use de and normally are locked.
Then I went in, Pull down my jeans and about to sit down, a HUGE cockroach appear from nowhere and headed to my legs. I was like startled and shifted my legs hoping it will go other way, but no lor, it keep runnin toward me and I was reali veri afraid it will climb up my leg and I climb on top of the toilet bowl standing there watching where it headed. I started to pull up my jeans and I was beginnin to feel more and more afraid cos I afraid that thing can FLY!!! I HATE flying cockroach!!!! I saw it run to a corner and I hurry jump dwn, open the door, run out and slam the door shut!!!
SO scary!!!
After that I dun dare to use the toilet and went to the public one instead.... I got tink of steppin it but I dun wan to dirty my shoes le... seem quite disgusting to have a flatted cockroach until my shoe.


Today Garren came back again..
Actuali its yester. School called and say he is having fever so I went to fetch him straight after work. I wanted to let him rest more so I never let him go school today and brim him to mummy there again.
Dun tink its deague since he didnt have spotted red marks but he got a veri bad throatache, cos his voice and become veri hoarse...
Tink he too heaty cos he 2 days never move bowels liao. Today mummy told me to buy the pump for constipation so release the "heaty" that was trap inside him. Well, I did as Im told.
He was like lao sai lor, released alot.
Heng... at least like tat he will better soon... Tomolo goin to brim him to school cos taking him back and fro to mummy there are veri troublesome and money wasting since I take cab to work from there as I was late.
Hope he will get well... So tired and wori tis few days. But althou he is sick, he is still naughty as he is.
Hahahaha!!
My Garren are a crybaby, always want me to hug him when he cries...

FINALLY...!!!

Back to normal, everything is normal as usual. Thanks to Ming, my bro fren to sort out my computer.

This few days was tough for me. No com... Actuali can use liao since my fren come reformat but hor din do good job on the setting tats why veri lagging...

Now is working well and fine. But goin to upgrade my RAM cos Im goin to go on a new craze about MU..!! ^^

Last week Garren just had a veri bad fever... Almost reach 40 degree the fever... Went to see doc and he say he have infection i tink on his throat and that makes him keep having fever that wont go down. I was worry that it might be degue fever cos my area was the "danger zone". BB st 31 was jus few roads away. Luckily, his fever went away last nite. * Thank God* Yester he never went to school since he was still fevering and I cant took off from work, so I left him at mum's there. Then At nite fever completely went away and today I just brim him to school. Kids, always makes you worry and angry. Only time they are the sweetest was when they are sleeping.

Mooncakes Festival is coming soon. Thou of brimin them to Yuhua Garden to watch the lantern display. Went once when Belle was only 4 yrs old and Garren few months old. Of cos Zhu zhu was not born yet. It was reali fun, took alot of pics with Belle and the theme for that year was disney cartoon. Saw Nemo, Beauty & the Beast, Alice In The Wonderland, Pooh Bear and his frenz, and alot more I forgotten. Now zhuzhu is older so thou of asking mummy to go. Havent ask her yet, wanted to ask when I saw her but keep forgetting.

Kinda of bore to be at home. Bros not around , dad always come home late, and I cant go out since nobody at home to help look after. But its ok, I oso dunno where to go. HAHAHA... Karin told me she every fri nite got go out with her frenz and say too bad I cant go with her. I told to to wait another 3 yrs for me, by that time kids are older and Im still in twenties. Still YOUNG can go cheong with her. She say that time she old liao, LOLZ!!!!

SOmetimes I reali feel the older the kids are the harder to teach them to obey to me. Like Belle, told her to go to bed, she will say she want to watch tv. Garren, told him not to beat Belle, the next min he forgotten and do the same thing again. Zhuzhu le, everyday scream and scream when they fight... HEADACHES!!! But with them around, at least Im not that alone. They make me laugh too. And Belle a kid -adult, always tok like a auntie. Without them I oso dunno wan to do with my life. At the least they are the reason I have steer clear from the bad 'things' I used to do and get my life straight. I dun care how bad and useless their father are cos they ARE my kids and only mine.

My life is in a deep black hole!!!! !!!

My com crashed yesterday evening. Dunno who, or myself accidently deleted a file of the window program... now window cant started as it keep stated a file missing or corrupt, nid to install the dunno wat file again..
Saddened...!!!

Cant live without a com since I at home nothing to do except playing com when Im free...

Now waiting for my saviour (whoever she or he is) to lend me a window xp program disc.

Dunno still have to wait how long. Now using office com secretly since boss dun allow us using internet during working hour.
Hope can fix the stupid com sooner... Haiz...

MY LIFE IS A MISERY WITHOUT INTERNET!!
LOLZ!!

Anyway, Im on my own from now onwards. Im on my own to feed and raise my kids. Maybe occasionally gets help from my mum, keke..

Im so sick of my life now... Sick of all the cryin, all the shoutin, all the screaming...
Nid something fresh in my life!!!

Hm, but how lei.. My life is still damn boring even if there is something fresh in my life.. maybe its because Im bot satisfied with my life, not satisfied with what i have.

Ya, Im veri greedy.

I wanted much more in my life. I wanted alot more in my life. But reality is always real. What I wanted never will appear in reality. At least this is what I keep telling myself.
I have keep myself under control not to go crazy.

I believe my limit is reaching.. Hahaha...

Of cos I dun want to go crazy. I still got alot ahead in my life and I still dont want to end everything although everything is pushing me to my limit. Like my kids, the bills, the relationship, the demanding and the couldnt-care-less family of mine. My family is not that bad. Just they never help me in my kids. Not that they hate them becos of him, just that Im the only woman at home and my dad cant handle kids at al. Like when Im a small kid.

I would rather be in age 30 now and my kids are more older. 5 more years later, my youngest would have been 7 years old... The least they wont be screaming my head out at that age. Being a mum of 3 is never easy. Being a mum cum dad of 3 is to becoming insane...

But at least, Im know there is one thing Im satisfied now...

Im free from "him"

Salute to those single parenting people. They have my ultimate respect for them cause I know what they are goin thru, just like me.

Ya ya, enough of my nagging... Goin to bath them & myself and then, go buy the dinner Im cookin tonight and continue my miserable life... LOLz!!