Another day passed~

Exam time are going to start.
Next week onwards are Belle's first semester exam.
I'm quite worry for her since thing are more difficult than before and she doesn't like to revise her work at all.

Last night went through all the photos of them. From baby time till now and I think back at the time when there is only Belle. Then came Garren.
Then Jayden.

I realized that I like to take alot of photos of them. Well, I told myself no matter what I must leave lots of photos thru out their childhood so that when they grow up we can go through it together, happily... like last night when I look through myself and I realized she had grown alot.

Remember that time I only had her. We do things together, sleep together, bath together...
Come to think of it, she never really leave my side before...

Now that she had grow up, had her own thinking...

I really love them so much that I was so afraid that they will break my heart...
Well, I also went through this, doesn't I?
And I believed I also broke my parent's heart before...

I regretted...

Being parent will have endless worries about their children no matter how grown up they are...
This is more confirm after talking to Lilian this afternoon and Karin this few days.
Everyone are worried for the future of children... Giving them all the best things we can give...

Anyway, tomorrow is my birthday!!

Happy Birthday to me!! Another step towards 30!!!!

They are Overseas again~

Both my bros went overseas again. This morning when I wake up they are not home anymore...

I miss them actually.. alot...

Now that both are not around I feel alone and empty. Why?
Maybe because without them around, there are no more jokes and pranks... No one to talk too...

I really feel very low mood...

Home doesn't feel like family cause so many members are not around...

Haiz...

Although it seems like we are not close, actually not.
Three of us likes to made fun of one another sometimes. It feel warm cozy when we talk about the childhood..

Im just a emotional person and family means alot to me...

He's fine, thanks God~!!

Yesterday was planning to bring Jayden to another doctor. Luckily, when we wake up, I saw that those spots and patches had began to fade... and not so swollen.
He is beginning to recover!!!

I was so worry he might got something dirty and cause his allergy... might be the heat that cause those rashes...

Today he went back to school.
Although there are still rashes, but alots have faded and teacher also think its recovering.

But...

My dear boy was so enjoying at home that he actually don't want to go school.
He keep telling me that he have red dot dot on his face when I told him he must go school since he recovered... and cried very very loud when the teacher carried him into school cause he didn't want to step in the school.

Oh, boy...

Must be because I spoilted him during these few days while he is sick...
Ice-creams, sweets, TVs, VCDs, soaking in water while bathing...




Notice the white thing on his body?
That's the medicine to ease the itchiness...Very cooling... But don't know why he didn't like it at all...

Well, really had a 'shocking' week...

He always got into weird sickness eversince he was born.
Remember when he was 1 month old, actually admitted to hospital because of fever... Haiz...

Jayden is Allergy to Something!! Or is not??

Last Sat while having dinner outside, I noticed that Jayden have red spots on his legs, so I thought it might be cause by the heat from the hot weather. Since recently weather have been really really very hot. So I ignored it, thinking it will go away itself.

Sunday, woke up and saw that the red spots began to spread. Even to his face... Thinking something must be not right... At noon, it got worsen. It even got itchy if he sweat and he will scratch and scratch... Went to mum's there and mum say he is bitten by bugs. But I don't think so cause I know what it looks like if being bitten.
Then at night the red spots and patches are all over him. Mum keep bathing him in cold water with dettol. Wanted to bring him see doctor but Sunday not many clinic got open so waited till monday...

Monday bring him go see doctor at 9am. Got alot of people. 16 people before him. So waited. 1020am, still got 8 people before his turn. So fed up cause weather very hot and he keep running and cause himself to sweat so change another clinic which have no people. But I wonder the doctor really can or not. He say he don't know what really cause him to be allergy untill so serious. Its either he got bitten by something or he eaten something. Given me medicine to stop the itch. One to eat, one to put on. Say if 2 days later still like that, must see doctor again...

Today, still see alots of spots and patches...
If tomorrow still like that I will bring him see another doctor.
Althought he looks like very sick, luckily still very active and can eat. If not, it must be very serious. Doesn't look sick except for those red spots and patches.

Stressing the kids? Or just normal?

Because I wanted her to have great result, so i let her go for alots of tuitions.
Every Mon and Fri got private tuition.
Every Sat got CDAC tuition.
Every Mon stay back at school for tuition.
Everyday at student care got tuition.

Is it too much?

But I think if don't push her now, she wont able to get into a good class when she is Primary 3. Beside, she doesn't like to study at home.

The boys are getting homework from childcare every weekend.
This is a good way. Garren are much better than his sister. He likes doing homework alot. Always will finish his work when he is being told to do it. Belle, the other side, needs to nag and nag and nag. Sometimes even say she have no homework when she actually does.

I always thought when they grow older, it's easier to teach. But I think not.
When they have their own thinking, they becomes a 'little' rebellious.
Just how should I cope with this rebellious?

I don't believe in caning can make them good. At least not cane all the times. Too much caning can have side effects. Like if they have some things they want to tell anyone, they hide from you instead of sharing.
I don't want my kids to be like that.
I want them to tell me anything and everything. Happy or sad or problems they can't solve.

It's not easy being a parents nowadays.
Especially when I had a crazy past, I also don't want my kids to be like that.

Aren't mums the GREATEST?

Of course there are also not 'great' mums who actually can abandon their kids.
I don't know the reason why. But I really believe no matter how hard it is, a mum can never ever leave her children alone.

Cos no one can give out as much as a mother can...

What a Day!

Today Belle's was late for school. When we woke up, its already 7:45am. Assembly started at 8am. Haiz... Missed the school bus again...

Actually I really think the school bus come too early in the morning.
6:50am, the latest time they will wait for students. So early! The school so near and yet need to wake up early in the morning to catch bus!!
Wonder when should I let her go to school in public buses. Primary 3? Primary 4?
I took buses to her school early in the morning before and I think its safer than after school. Cos morning, there are more pupils taking buses and walking to school.

Raining day...

Early morning rain and rain...
So sleepy, but wanted to finish Bleach anime...

Too Much Restriction for Pets in Sgp!

Today I brought my Princess along to bring kids to school, after that I went to a nearby coffee shop to buy coffee.
I was so dissatisfied with the coffee shop auntie. While waiting for my coffee, I was standing in front of the counter with Princess in my hand. The auntie in the counter told me that I cannot bring dog in, I retorted her that I was just buying coffee and will be gone after I took my coffee. She said," Oh, cannot la, we will get fine if pets are brought in the coffee shop. You wait outside for your coffee lor." I was super duper angry!

Just what's wrong to bring pet along to buy things?

Pets not allow because they afraid they anyhow pee or poo? Then what about those birds flying in and out the coffeeshop? Don't tell me they are not dirty, they don't poo?

I was carrying her in my arms, she wouldn't pee or poo mah. She was quiet all along, never bark or growl at anyone.

Just why can't pets enter coffeeshop.

If you ask me why there are so many abandoned cases of animals in sgp, this is one of the reason.

People find that it's bored and troublesome since pets are not allowed in so many places.
Example, I was going to a family outing for 3 days at chalet. Pets not allowed. So what am I going to do with them? I don't trust pet sitting. So how?

Other countries respected animals right more. At the least most places are 'pets allowed'.

Truths About Men & Women

I read up this on a forum and I really find it very amusing...

Some Truths About Men & Women

Men:
1. All men are extremely busy.
2. Although they are so busy, they still have time for women.
3. Although they have time for women, they don't really care for
them.
4. Although they don't really care for them, they always have one
around.
5. Although they always have one around them, they always try their Luck
with others.
6. Although they try their luck with others, they get really pissed off if
the women leaves them.
7. Although the women leaves them they still don't learn from their
mistakes and still try their luck with others.

Women:
1. The most important thing for a woman is financial security.
2. Although this is so important, they still go out and buy expensive
Clothes.
3. Although they always buy expensive clothes, they never have something To
wear.
4. Although they never have something to wear, they always dress
Beautifully.
5. Although they always dress beautifully, their clothes are always just
"An old rag".
6. Although their clothes are always "just an old rag", they still Expect
you to compliment them.
7. Although they expect you to compliment them, when you do, they don't
Believe you.

Well, what it's written are almost true. :)

This is more interesting...

50 Universal Truths About Men
by Bob Grant, L.P.C.

1. Why should I remind you that "I love you?" I already told you once.

2. I'll do anything for sex; even commit to you for life.

3. I hate arguing with you. I'd much rather find a compromise.

4. I love long hair. Sorry, but I do.

5. When you speak softly, I can't help but listen.

6. I need to be told "no" sometimes. Not a lot, but every now and again reminds me that you are expensive.

7. Please don't ask me how you look unless you're willing to trust my answer.

8. My eyes notice other women a lot more when you are upset with me.

9. When you're happy with me I can't help but want to please you.

10. If I don't feel I can make you happy, it makes me feel less than a man.

11. I expect you to be ready when I pick you up.

12. Cigarettes make any woman look cheap and easy.

13. I'm scared if I let a woman inside my heart, she'll take advantage of me.

14. If you can't stand up to me when I'm a brat, you're too weak for me to open up to when I'm upset.

15. Sitting quietly next to me after you've made me a meal is your get-out-of-the-doghouse-free ticket. You'll be surprised how quickly I can forgive.

16. You did something hurtful. If I never bring it up, I'm considering leaving you.

17. I don't read minds. Remember, I'm not a girl.

18. You may know fashion, but I wish you'd dress to please me, not other women.

19. If I'm losing my hair, it's not funny. Would you like me to joke about your weight?

20. When I talk to you about golf and you act bored, it would be nice for you to remember all the times I listened to you talk about what is important to you.

21. The woman I love is easy to please. She appreciates the effort I put into making her happy, even if I get the details wrong.

22. You look hot in a dress.

23. I hate being told what to do when I don't ask for help. It makes me feel you're my mother.

24. If you sleep over, I might eventually marry you, but I'm less motivated.

25. During sex my ears are as sensitive to your words as your skin is to my touch.

26. I need some type of signal or cue to walk across the room and approach you. What if you're married!?

27. It makes me feel like you trust me when you ask for my advice.

28. It feels competitive when you insist on being in charge.

29. Being respected is more important to me that being loved.

30. I want every guy to envy me when we arrive as a couple. Please don't let yourself go.

31. When I'm upset I am very tone sensitive. How you say it is more important that what you say..

32. I hate it when you minimize/ignore my compliments. It makes me what to stop giving them.

33. I'm more insecure than you think. Why do you think I need your respect so much?

34. I don't always know how I feel. That's why I don't tell you.

35. I don't need you to do things for me. What I crave is being able to please you.

36. If I do one thing and say something contradictory - Go with my actions, that will always tell you what's in my heart.

37. I find myself wanting to please you when you simply smile at me without asking for something. (Like a favor).

38. I really don't want to hear about any of your ex-boyfriends, regardless of the point.

39. If I don't share what I'm thinking it's because I don't think you will listen without interrupting.

40. I don't like to argue and I don't like to guess what's wrong. Just tell me so I can fix it.

41. I love it when you put your hair in a pony tail. Yes, it's a Freudian thing.

42. Don't ask me, "Are you going to wear that?" when I'm already dressed.

43. A gentleman should always be respected by his lady in public, even if she is disagreeing with him.

44. If you don't believe you're pretty, you won't believe me when I tell you, no matter how many times I say it.

45. It isn't how much you weigh; it's that your body is proportionate which is so attractive.

46. Sometimes I have weird and strange thoughts. I don't take them seriously and I don't want to share them with you (or anyone).

47. Sometimes you really don't want to know what I'm thinking. See above.

48. If you cheat on me, it is nearly impossible for me to get over it.

49. I don't remember everything about our relationship and that doesn't mean I don't love you.

50. I need some time to myself to calm down when I'm upset so that I don't say something I will regret.

Interesting, but not every guys are like what they wrote. At least to me...

JObs, Jobs, JoBs

Anyone got jobs to introduce?